Hey everyone!
So I know it has been a LONG time. Sorry for that. Life is crazy.
I'm going to visit Fredonia tomorrow again. I'll have my college decision made by the end of the week! I can't wait to finally be able to see farther in the future of my life.
Over the summer I'll be working at a camp in the Adirondacks....which I know I've posted about before. Its just really exciting to have that feeling of being free out in the woods. I think it is going to help my training a lot to be n regular sleep patterns and running patterns since I will be able to run when I want and work when I want! I leave the morning after graduation! Which feels crazy for me and my parents but they are excited for me.
So my grad party will prob actually be the week before graduation. I'm in the middle of planning it so I'll make one of those face book events for it early this week. It's a little sad/scary to think I wont see some of these people after that...
Running has been great! I got athlete of the year for indoor which was exciting. Training is going very well. Ethan is looking really great...I swear he bumped his head toward the end of indoor...kinda like sophomore year track. Anyhow, watch out for him to throw down some fast times this spring.
A story.......
Yesterday my friend called me up and wanted to bike. So, of course that sounded good to me. We rode for about an hour and a half. It was raining the whole time and like 40 out. and there we are in biking shorts. When we were pedaling up hills half way through it felt like my feet were HUGE because they were numb and swolen. My joints were really tight, my fingers were numb, my nose felt frozen, and my bike shoes retained all the water that went into them....so they were about half full of freezing cold water. When I got off my bike it hurt to walk and we were shaking from the cold. Afterward I was thinking...why did we go for and hour and a half? why didn't we just turn around?
Later that night I was thinking about running and making myself go through that pain.
Is it weird that I find comfort in pain? Is it weird that I feel through pain I'm offering myself to the Lord or that I actually was enjoying myself despite the hurt? Do I accept everything the Lord puts into my life? I thought I was my own person, that I could make my own decisions...yet, when I want to stop and my mind is screaming to rest my body and my body feels like battery acid is pumping through my veins why can't I stop. Even when I try to I can't. I understand that sometimes I can't understand. But my mind can't help but wonder...
God Bless
Love you guys & be yourself!
-Brian :)
